Monday, January 21, 2013

What I'm Working on Part Deux

{I logged on to write a post for the first time in almost a year, and I found this in my queue from March, 26 2012. I loved my attitude of not being too hard on myself, and am vowing to bring it back, so as a reminder to myself, I am posting it anyway...}

The last time we spoke I wrote about the things that I needed to work on in order to lose the extra weight I've been carrying around for the last few years. I have been working on them, and I was successful for a few weeks. But progress has been at a standstill for the last two weeks.

Truth be told, I was doing really well on eating breakfast, eating every couple of hours, getting sleep and drinking water. But (heeere come the excuses...), my work schedule completely changed. I was working 7a.m. - 3:30 p.m. at the rehab, and then 5 p.m. - 11 p.m. (sometimes 12 a.m. like last night) at the restaurant. I was leaving my house at 6:15 a.m., and not getting home until midnight(-ish) every night! It was exhausting! I had absolutely no time to add in exercise like I had hoped, and had no time to cook. I somehow managed to pull together salads, veggies with dip, fruit, and snacks for my morning shifts, was eating dinner when I got to the restaurant, and still making my protein smoothie for breakfast. So while my eating wasn't horrible, I was sleep deprived (averaging 4 hours per night), not drinking nearly enough water, and obviously not working out.


And my schedule is switching every week. So this past week I have worked mostly night shifts, and overnights. Which screw with my routine, and mood like no other. But alas, spring break at the restaurant is coming to a close in 2 weeks and I can drop down to working 2 days per week (instead of 5), and I should have a set schedule at the rehab starting in May (fingers crossed), so my schedule should be more predictable with a two-week rotation.

Right now, I am just trying to enjoy what I have got going on. I need to just go with it instead of focusing on everything I am doing wrong, and the fact that the scale hasn't moved in my favor in 2 weeks.

I also need not be so hard on myself for not blogging regularly. I thrive on routine, and I just don't have one, so something has got to give. For now it's this space. Because as much as I need the outlet, I also need sleep. Working 70-75 hours per week plus trying to meal plan/cook for myself and Boomer, sleep, do laundry, brush my hair, clean house, and put one foot in front of the other is enough for now.

I need to not be so hard on myself. It isn't all or nothing, my best is enough. And when I am resting on my laurels, I will know. But right now? I know I am not resting on my laurels. I am doing what I can, when I can. And that is enough.

This week I am working/busy at the beginning of the week, and then I am out of town for a girls weekend Friday, Saturday, AND Sunday. I can't remember the last time I had two days off in a row, much less and entire weekend! I am beyond excited! The last several years we've done the Lutsen thing. But, do to life and relationship changes amongst our group O' friends, we elected to do a girls weekend, in a fabulous sweet, in a hotel, in the city! Believe me, there will be plenty of drunken debauchery, only better!! It is going to be an EPIC weekend!!

Exhibit A: Skittles Vodka


Exhibit B: Jolly Rancher Vodka (via my friend Mel)



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